A Family

I want a little girl. I have been taking care of children since I was 13, and I have always loved children. Yeah, sometimes they get on my nerves, but they can be so adorable too. Little girls, though, are the most precious to me. Boys are cute too of course, but I want a little girl to raise. I want to braid her hair, read her stories, play games like Pretty Pretty Princess, and give her cute outfits to wear. I want to go to her sports games and cheer her on, and I want to see her smiling with her daddy. That is so special, seeing a little girl with her daddy, dancing, laughing, playing catch. She would be mine too, and that's what I would love the most. Its fun to watch other people's children, but to have my own would make me so unbelievably happy.  But I want to be married first. I would love to have a baby now, but I dont think the father would be very happy. And I cant make someone have a baby if he doesnt want it. I hope this makes sense (to whomever might read this), but I want to have a baby with someone who wants to have a baby too.

I want to have a family that Ive made on my own. I love my mom, dad, and sisters, but we are very independent of each other. I want to create my own family, but one where the parents stay together, the kids love each other, and everyone enjoys being around one another. I cant say its like that with my family right now since we are from a "broken home."

Hopefully one day, and one day relatively soon, I will have a husband and a little girl...and maybe a few other little rugrats.

New Facebook

Part of me wants to create a brand new Facebook profile, with a fake name, just so I can post whatever I freaking want! Naked pictures, curse words, etc...stuff that I would never post in a million years.  It would be like a whole new me.  Maybe I should just change my life. But how do I do that? I guess I would need a car to do that. I should just buy a car. Screw getting a job and being responsible! No but seriously, I need a new me/life. I want to wear cute scarves, jackets, BOOTS!, have wavy hair, be thin...I can do that, right? I already have some cute scarves and jackets. Now I just need the boots, learn to curl my hair, and lose a little more weight. Did I mention Ive already lost 30 lbs. this year?? Its great! Ive never lost weight in my life, let alone 30 lbs.!! So I feel more confident about myself, and I just want to have cute clothes to wear. I want to be cute again.  All my friends, Adam, and some guys I know say that I am cute, but I dont see it. I want to feel good about myself, and I really think cute new outfits with BOOTS are the way to go!!!! Maybe I will still make that fake Facebook though, just for fun ;)

Sorry that all of my posts are so "stream-of-thought" like.